For the past week, I’ve felt like I’ve been basking in peace. I’ve been walking on a lake of it.
Each morning I sit in my chair and marvel @ and in God’s Presence.
So – This morning, I asked myself what made the difference?
What or Who is it that has brought me to this place of peace?
This morning I read Ps 143. Vs 12 says:
“In your unfailing Love, silence my enemies; destroy my foes, for I am your servant.”
At the side of this verse, I had written “My Thoughts.”
The greatest enemy – perhaps the only real foe – in my life has always been my thought processes. (I wish I had put a date next to the note)
Part of the healing that has brought me to this place of contentment and purpose has been in my mind. I no longer spend as much time intensely analyzing every (negative) detail of my life – (and the lives of others.) Those thought processes usually lead me down a dark path that produces a dead end – and it always turns out to be a very short drive.
Side note – I still have the ability to evaluate my
paths, but I no longer find myself at a dead end.
The difference is TRUST! Ps 143:8 “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing Love – For I have put my TRUST in You.” I’ve always known that TRUST and LOVE are kissing cousins. Trust and Love are opposite faces of the same coin. You can’t have one without the other. I’ve always known that I did not trust God enough. I’ve always known that I did not love Him enough. I’ve always known that He Loved me, But – for more than 50 years of my life, I had NO IDEA how
very much He loved me.
In my journal, dated 9.29.09, I wrote: “Lord, I approach you with the FREEDOM and BOLDNESS that is born in the faith that you love me.” Eph 2:12
Looking back, I can recognize the process of that coming true in my life.
Some 30 months ago, God very specifically told me to “STOP” “BE STILL” “QUIT – Trying so hard”
“Let me begin to show you how much I Love you.”
He’s done that! In ways that have amazed me. As my awareness of His Love for me has grown, my trust in Him has been its cousin. They are both maturing and leading me on a path of peace that surpasses my understanding. I’m learning that my understanding of it all is not the important thing. (Prov 3:5 lean not on your own understanding…)
His Love for me and my trust in that Love is His Formula for my peace.
The Quest for understanding can be a padlock on the gates along my path.
Faith in His Love and Trust in His Grace is the opening combination.
Understanding is usually found on the other side of the gate.
…be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Ro 12:2
Thx, Ken. I am more healed today than I’ve ever been. Process. I am healed, and I am bring healed.
Uncle Jim, I want you to know that I am praying for you to have a complete healing and that I love and respect you more as a person for going to great pain to get where you are today. I value your courage to see that you needed help, as we all do in life. Your blog brought tears to my eyes as I read it. I will be reading it daily.