Category Archives: Trust


Ralph from Teen Challenge’n I were chatting a couple’a weeks ago while we were at New Life Church. He said something about Humility. Before we knew it, this was the result of our discussion:

H.onesty    A.uthenticity   H.umility

I’ve always been puzzled by the scripture that tells ME to HUMBLE MYSELF.
Humble yourself before the LORD, and He will lift you up. James 4:10

I remember someone telling me once: “Jim, when you get as spiritual as I am, God is really going to do mighty things for you.” My thought was… “Say What? How can YOU be spiritual if you are PROUD of how spiritual you are?” It seems to me that humility might fall in that same category. Is it possible to strive for Humility? Would that not then lead me to be proud of how humble I am? It seems like I would then LOSE my humility.(see what happens when I think too much?)

I must confess, I do not know how to humble myself. (maybe I’m just afraid to ask Him to teach me – like I did with Trusting Him) But – I CAN choose to be honest. I have discovered that it is primarily my pride that causes me to keep secrets. If I keep secrets, I am required by the very act of secrecy to pretend. And lie. 

Authenticity and secrecy are incompatible. Either one will destroy the other. 

I can CHOOSE Honesty.
Honesty produces Authenticity. In me.
Authenticity is a Basic Building Block of Humility

So… BOTTOM LINE – if I wish to be HUMBLE, I must FIRST learn to be HONEST.
HONESTY requires TRUTH from me: to Myself. To Others. And to GOD.
As I learned Honesty I began to Discover the Real Me. 

Others in my life are now telling me I am Authentic, Real, and Humble. They tell me they can trust me. They tell me their secrets, so they must. I don’t know, it’s not something I’m striving for anymore. I’m just having a good time being THE REAL ME! Finally!

Authenticity comes from Honesty which leads to Humility. 

H.onesty –>
A.uthenticity –>

     H. A. H.

HIS Mysterious Ways

“Embrace Ur problem?”
“Nickname Ur problem?”
“Make friends with them?”
“Thank God for Ur problems?”
Say what?!? Yeah, it works… The name of my biggest problem was/is SIR JAMES!

U can read about him here: and here:

I don’t normally share the wisdom of others on my blog.
(hmmm, RU trying to tell me something. Lord?)
But today’s words by Sarah Young beg to be shared. I’m amazed at how it fits into some of the lessons I’ve had from God! I sure wish I’d learned it by listening to people like her instead of the way God had to teach me.
But, then, I blame SIR JAMES for that!!
Too bad he’s me!



Today’s – Jesus Calling:

March 5
by Sarah Young
(boldtype mine)


Make friends with the problems in your life. Though many things feel random and wrong, remember that I am sovereign over everything. I can fit everything into a pattern for good, but only to the extent that you trust Me. Every problem can teach you something, transforming you little by little into the masterpiece I created you to be. The very same problem can become a stumbling block over which you fall, if you react with distrust and defiance. The choice is up to you, and you will have to choose many times each day whether to trust Me or defy Me.


The best way to befriend your problems is to thank Me for them. This simple act opens your mind to the possibility of benefits flowing from your difficulties. You can even give persistent problems nicknames, helping you to approach them with familiarity rather than with dread. The next step is to introduce them to Me, enabling Me to embrace them in My loving Presence. I will not necessarily remove your problems, but My wisdom is sufficient to bring good out of every one of them.


We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.

—Romans 8:28 amp


But we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God.

—1 Corinthians 1:23–24

Now read this post: 

HIS Tapestry

4976tap Tapestry


GOD can give me ANYTHING but more TIME

I need to be Generous with EVERYTHING in my life, including my TIME, but I need to guard my time, because what I have is all I get.

I thought this the other day, and I expected it to just be one of those passing bits’o wisdom that comes and goes. But it’s sticking around in this hotel I call my mind. The more I think about it , the more it grows.

Tell me… Whatcha think?


 Recently, when people ask: “How are U, Jim“? I’ve found myself saying:

Better than I ever expected to be

I pray I never lose the amazement of it

But – I had to go through a deep dark pit to get here. I now call that place my “Gift of Desperation”. I now see that God took me there, and then He “rescued” me, BECAUSE HE Wanted me to have the life I have today.

I had asked Him to teach me to trust Him more. I recently found that prayer in one of my journals from about 8 years ago. Little did I know what lay ahead.

He knew what He was doing. NOW, I understand. But not at the time.



#19/21 day challenge

HIS Tapestry


All my life I’ve heard it said:
God has a plan for your life”
I’ve spent most of my life wondering –

What it is…    How do I find it…    Who can tell me…
What if…   I get to Heaven and discover I missed it
I finally gave up the search for the plan
I started a search – For HIM

Now – I know. Now, I understand:

God has a plan for my life, but it’s not important for me
To know the plan. It’s VITALLY crucial that I know HIM

He takes all of me
The good, the best, the bad, the ugly, the “unforgivables”
The talents, the abilities, the giftedness, the sorrow, the pain, the heartaches

He weaves it together as only HE can do.
He sees the pattern, He know the plan
I see through a broken, smoky glass
He knows the end from the beginning

My ONLY part in the process is releasing control of the threads to HIM

But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.  Jeremiah 18:4 NIV

It’s not up to me to figure out what’s planned so I can follow it, fearing I’ll misstep.
I have come to recognize that He takes even the hardest, the most traumatic times,
even my mistakes and uses them to form me into what HE wants me to be

For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago. 

Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)

But What about my sin?

For the past (almost) 4 years, I’ve had the privilege of working with 6 or 7 guys from Teen Challenge every Tuesday at New Life Church, Alamo, Ca.

Several months ago, we started having a time of sharing together each morning as we eat donuts and drink coffee. They enjoy it because of the coffee and donuts, and I get a chance to share my blog posts. Win,Win for all!! Seriously, it’s become a very beneficial time of sharing our hearts in a small group before starting our day.

Last Tuesday, I shared a blog post about God’s Presence. The phrase that became the point of discussion for the morning was:

“Don’t ever allow the awareness of your sin to keep you out of My Presence.”

The Question of the day became:

“If we can’t pick up our sin and carry it into the presence of the Lord,
what are we to do with it?”

Several things were listed:

      • Work harder
      • Pray more
      • Read more scripture
      • Recommit myself
      • Deny it
      • Bury it
      • Blame others
      • Promise – never again!
      • Stop – just stop!
      • Compare mine with yours
      • Pretend I don’t… sin (one’o my personal favorites)
      • Ignore it, maybe it will just go away
      • Do Penance for it
      • Run from it
      • Cry about it
      • Rename it
      • Give in to it. Again. Like before
      • Justify it

For most of my life, I did not know what to do with my sin. Over the years, I’ve tried all the things on this list, and more. I’ve watched others struggle as well. I’ve come to recognize that lots of (most?) people don’t know either. I knew we are saved by Grace, but then what? What if I keep sinning? Didn’t Jesus say: Go – and sin no more?” What do I do with my sin? How can I abide in Him if I keep sinning?

There have been days upon days that I find myself standing in the storm, waiting to get dry enough so I can come “inside”. I’ve had those on the “inside” hand me a towel and say: “Here, dry yourself off so you can join us.” Before I know it, my towel is wet, too.

I finally reached the point I knew all my efforts to atone for my shortcomings (see – I renamed my sin) were never going to allow me to come before Him with the boldness and confidence He promises.

I finally learned (He taught me) that the ONLY thing I can do with my sin is pick it up and carry it into His Presence. It is THERE I find victory. It is THERE I find Love. It is THERE I find acceptance. It is THERE I find forgiveness. It is THERE I find freedom and joy. I can go THERE because HE says: “COME

What are U doing with Ur sin?
How’s that working 4U?
Is Ur towel wet?

Therefore,… we have confidence by His blood,… to draw near to God with a sincere heart, in full assurance of faith…   Hebrews 10; 19-22 NIV


Excerpt from: “My Judge? or ‘Father!'”    read the original here.

My Child, let me explain one more thing to you. That death of my Son on that Cross set you free! Not only from the penalty of your sin, not only from the punishment of your guilt, but also from the power of sin. For the law of the spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and death. There is therefore no condemnation for you. Will I accuse you? Listen close to what I am saying to you! My SON died for you! Will I bring a charge against you? I justified you!”

“This is the covenant I make with you. Your sins and your lawless deeds I will remember no more. Now, where there is forgiveness of these things, I no longer require a sacrifice for sin! Therefore, my child, you can now have confidence to come into my presence with freedom and boldness.

Please, don’t ever allow your awareness of your sin
to keep you out of my presence!

“From this moment and forever, you do not come before me to be judged.
You come to me as my Beloved Child!”


I’m beginning to realize that SO MANY TIMES my choice is not between good and evil.

Over’nOver’nOverAgain, It boils down to a choice between Grace and Ego

His way is Grace. My way is Ego. That’s not always a choice between good and evil

Except in the sense that His Way is Always Better

His Way may not always be the softer and more gentle path

But it IS the path of and to Peace

Mining for Gold

In Friday’s meeting I shared:

I came to Recovery because I needed to feel better. And I do. But what I learned was how to feel MY FEELINGS BETTER.

That part of ME that I use to hide my feelings – from the world, from God or from myself does not always have the capacity to know the difference between the good and bad. So as I sweep stuff under the rug, I end up burying Golden Treasures along with the dirt.

Those Nuggets that bring Joy to my life can be elusive. I’ve had to dig deep, but I now can feel (my feelings) better. I “feel better”!

I am now beginning to understand why God has been so relentless in teaching me to Trust Him. He wants the Best for me. He know where the Gold is buried. He wants to help me find it.